what else but Christmas

So I think it is safe to say this was my best Christmas and I can thank that too my little boy, husband and one of my co workers. You see we all know as we become an adult Christmas of course is still so special and a wondeful day but it does not hold the excitment it did like when we were kids. Well now that I have a child all that excitment and joy came rushing back. Me and Paul had so much fun watching Liam look and touch his gifts concentrating so hard. I was able to be with my family Christmas eve thanks to a co worker who wanted to work that night for me. We had our own christmas morning here at home and it was great, opened gifts with Liam and then made biscuits and gravy with baconfor breakfast and took a nap. Then Christmas night headed over to Paul's brothers house to have christmas dinner with Paul's family. Liam looked so cute in his outfit as you will see in the photos below. I was sad though the pictures I took on Christmas eve at my families did not turn out. Thankgoodness for the Christmas night pictures.

BaCk To ReAliTy

So It is 1:24 in the morning and I am on day two and last day of my first week back to work. I must say the first night was harder then tonight just because I was not sure how my little boy was going to react without me for a whole night. He actually did pretty good. Paul did a wonderful job taking care of him and keeping him busy. He said only twice does he think he was crying because I was not there to hold him. He did wake up at 1:00 am wanting to eat but slept really good the rest of the night even some of it in his crib. I got big smiles when I got home and he slept pretty good with me some of the day, I was not as tired as I thought I would be well not until I had to get up the next morning for his 6 am feeding. So tonight so far from what I was told Liam slept from 7pm to 8pm in his crib loved his bath and was eating pretty well from the bottle. Dont know how he did going to bed but will find out in a few hours. Hoping all is well for this second night.

The time has come

It has been just over three months since I have given birth to my son. My life is completely different and just like everyone said Liam is my whole world. It is so crazy how much you can love such a little person in such a short amount of time. I actually ache when he is not near me. When he is happy it just makes my day and when he is sad it breaks my heart. Tommorow is my first day back to work. I have to now join my old life and my new life together and I am not sure of the outcome. I am kinda terrified to go back just I know things have changed at work and I think, "will I remember all the things I am suppose to do when I cannot stop thinking about how much I miss my little boy. Will he be okay without me!? I am sure Liam will be just fine with his dad it is me who might not be fine. I have cried already a couple of times thinking about it but it is something I need to do for the welfare of my family. I am truely blessed to be able to go down to part time and be able to have a loving husband and father to leave my precious son with. I hope time will calm all my fears and worries for this day I knew was coming and dreaded just the same.

December happenings

This month I will be returning to work. I have been trying to go out with friends and family alot since I will be tired most of the time after I return. I have busted out Liam's christmas Pajamas and he looks so cute in them. It has been cold and We have done lots of outings to enjoy the winter weather. But today we are staying at home I think Liam likes being home much better then going out and being busy. Me and Paul got to go see Harry Potter this week and we LOVED it. I teared up some leaving my little boy and it only is gonna get worse when I have to leave him for work. Hopefully this week we will be putting up our christmas lights and on December 11 we will get our christmas tree. Paul has also started digging trenches in the backyard in preparation for sprinklers then we will plant grass. To back up some for Thanksgiving on my side we got to host lunch at our house and had a good time playing games and talking. Then on Paul's side we went to his sisters and had dinner and took family pictures. Overall we had a great time with both sides.